October 2009
My contacts are dry.
Blank.
I did something bad. I did something bad. I did something bad.
Theres a lot you don't know about me. Lets keep it that way.
Don't fucking tell me you care, when I clearly know you don't.
The ants go marching one by one.. hurrah hurrah!!
Is there such thing as hairy hair?
Finding Nemo (2003)
- Marlin: I promised I'd never let anything happen to him.
- Dory: Hmm. That's a funny thing to promise.
- Marlin: What?
- Dory: Well, you can't never let anything happen to him. Then nothing would ever happen to him.
I can hear you crying in the other room, its breaking my heart to hear and see you hurt like this. Just remember how much I love you.
Just keep breathing, just keep breathing.
Advisement Thought # 11
I warned you. And I’ll warn you again.
I have a fear of commitment. I have never commited to a single person ever, in my life. Why? I’m only 15. I’m not in love with you. Sure ,I’ve got a lot of strong feelings for you and I think your an awesome person. A bit troubled, but you’ve got the potential.
I really do like you, I just don’t love you.
I’m only 15. I’m only 15. I’m only 15.
I’ve only known you for about 3 weeks. 3 weeks.
And you said the “L” word. You didn’t say it directly to me, but you implied it. I don’t want to hook up with you. I know you’ve said whenever I’m ready and whenever I’m comfortable, and our relationship isn’t about that. But you’re making it feel like that, you’re scaring me. I don’t like this. I’m not going to be hurt by another mindless, selfish boy.
No.
You mean a lot to me but, I don’t love you.
Why do you think I’m the girl with no girl friends and so many guy friends. I get guys. They make more sense to me. I can read you like a book. Thats why I’m good friends with all my ex’s. So, lets keep this at a friendly level, its not like we’re getting married.
Its a fear of commitment, I’ve realized this. It just doesn’t work, and its always this way.
I meet you, I fix you, I change you, I mold you and I get bored. So, I break you, tear you apart, push you away, shove you on the ground, pick you up, dust you off, offer you a hug, and talk to you about it.
We deciede to be friends.
This is the way it will always be.
I’m here to change people, for better or worse, I will change you. And you will change me. But this change, and this knowing that we make eachother happy does not mean you can take advantage of that. You may think that you love me. You don’t. You will never love me the way I want to be loved. And I can’t tell you that way, because I don’t even know what way that would even be. And even if I did, I still wouldn’t tell you.
Love is not a gateway for sex.
You can say it all you want, but you’re never going to understand, you’re never going to get it. I’m never going to be completely ready.
Hey, I really do like you.
I just don’t love you.
12309.) I'm human...so I'm allowed to make mistakes. I hope you understand that.
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12313.) i think my parent's divorce messed me up more than i originally thought it did. i cling to every bit of attention from guys i can get. is that so bad?
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Good news. I’m not losing my mind, and hearing voices. I simply just left my iPod on all day.
Jesse, your snoring.
I can't make everybody happy. So, get over it. I'm trying the best I can.
So, I had gym today and
I didn’t have anyone to talk or hang with.
And of course, we’re doing line dancing or whatever.
And I just stood their miserably..
I hate everyone.
this is me. every day.
it makes not want to get up in the morning anymore.
So, I had gym today and
I didn’t have anyone to talk or hang with.
And of course, we’re doing line dancing or whatever.
And I just stood their miserably..
I hate everyone.